Who I am

I’m telling you I am not Superwoman. Welcome to the blog. Assalamualaikum ●▽●

M.A.R.A.H.

I’m a bad temper girl. Easily mad at people. But until now, I’m tried to manage my temper so it will not blow it out to people around me. Whenever I’m angry with anything, I’m bearing it on my mind “please don’t acting like a stupid clown. Act like a professional”. With the anger inside of me, I choose to keep silent. NO mood in talk, NO mood in texting, NO mood to laugh, NO mood in movies. Just don’t mind me. Let the fire turn off by the times. I admit I’m easily got angry with little things such as waiting for a-late-person (even it is just 5 minutes late), or someone just format my pendrive without me knowing it, but I’ve tried to not make it a bigger issue.  Sabar itu separuh daripada iman, right?? That quotes I was thinking when I’m in temper. Don’t worry; I’m not a harmful people.

Warning; when I’m in silent mood, please don’t disturb me with anything that annoying me much. The fire might be bigger than the earlier. What is the annoying thing? The words that can make me pissed off. If it was a joke, make sure the joke is making a sense and not a sarcasm-to-be.

J.E.A.L.O.U.S.

I’m bad at this thing. And I totally hate this feeling. Wishing for “won’t be silly jelly” but the more I denied it, the more it shows.  I’m totally got easily jealousy when I’m got nothing when they have it. The more suck is, if I realised that when I’m nothing to them, their faces show “huh, look at yourself, LOSER!” . Ok. It makes me more to cursing. That I’m looking ‘loser’ to you, huh???!!!   Sometimes I cried louder if there’s something that I cannot hold with but the others can.  Sometimes I get angry if there’s something that I want but the others got it. Sometimes I get piss off if there’s something that I’m failed but the others success. All that things happened because of jealous. It’s totally broken my heart.

E.G.O.

Everyone have their own ego.  The difference is just, how their managed to handle the ego with the situation, the times, the people, the emotion. Me, have a high ego (I know because this is me). Sincerely, I’m admitting that I’m an egoist person. Just a bad or good, I’m not realized it at all. Depend on how you judge me and my egoist. I’m not easily giving people a chance to look down at me. But somehow depend on the situation. If there people that close to me or barely have I known (relative, classmate, or others--call-as-mate), I’m will forgive them on face to face. But still hold the grudge inside of me. I’m never forgive them. Beside of forgiveness, the way I’m act whenever they hurt my ego which is, I’m never talk to them, never looking their face, and never smile to them. My heart was hurt enough to do the happiest thing to them. It is still called as ego or pendendam..???

---- I will not showing the good of me because all of you might saying that I’m “RIAK”.--------

Nobody is perfect. Even the superman/woman. What they do is helping others but for themselves?? hopeless. Nobody there for them. Yet, I'm not a Superwoman, that stronger outside but feeling hopeless inside.Let me show you how the dark side of me. So that I can see how you all, the people can accept me the way I am. If you accept me the way I am, I will do the same things to you. If you cannot accept me, just leave. But never regret it. All above might change your first impression to me as a bad girl.  I'm a person who got the feel of anger, jealous and ego; same as you are. And me, still trying to be the best of friends ever. 

Who knows, all above I've just saying but not mean it. Me is who am I, and You have to accept it!